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« on: 20 Jan 2016, 13:44:15 »
Maa maa, hullo.
Well, I haven't been online recently and I just wanna tell you the reason before it. Oh, and that I'm probably not going to be on the server as often.
This is because I'm too ambitious and too daring and too stubborn. It's because I'm tired of sitting around in a tiny insignificant nowhere with an empty skull and grand dreams. I'm too stupid, and too ambitious, too weak and too lazy. I'm going to rectify this.
I'm going to try to change myself, and my life. I'm going to spend my time studying psychology, philosophy, sciences, maths, and everything I can from the tiny library at school. I'm going to learn martial arts (well to be fair, I already am but I don't think I can face someone in real life cause I'm too slow). I want to cram my head with stuff so technical that I've never even dreamed of it, stuff that feels so wrong and rigid because I want to have a meaning. I want to have an adventure. I am tired of wasting away in a tiny place no one's ever heard of, with fantasies and dreams and demons to keep me company.
sorry for wasting your time this turned out to be a huge rant im sorry
ill still be online once a week tho for like 3 hours i guess because you're my friends and i need you all cause you're the steady factors in my life